For K. & L.
You said:
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The last thing I remember you were a girl and your breasts were small.
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She said:
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Then everything you knew about me died when you became my brother. Now my hair and my eyes have fallen out. My breasts have turned into chalk hills.
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You said:
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But when I taste your nipple sister chalk turns into milk then into blood. Do you remember I swallowed your toes in bathtubs while July and August rode black mares and red and white Yamaha motor-bikes up Green Mountains? Fumes, grass and gnats filled your nose.
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She said:
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You sneezed. Mother waved delicate arms like moth-wings from the Green Valley below.
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You said:
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Home children, home, she huffed from the brick wood cabin chimney
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She said:
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nestled hidden in the forest surrounded by winding whirling creeks
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You said:
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and heavy black bear trails where the chimney smoked --
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She said:
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puffed-puffed away like grandfather's pipe
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You said:
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until fireflies burned out of kerosene
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She said:
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and fell out of the sky.
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You said:
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Then everything smelled like maple wood with closed eyes.
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You said:
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Sister, why did you become a mule?
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She said:
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I became a mule, brother, because that was the time.
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You said:
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What time was that?
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She said:
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The time my hands turned into rotting hooves dripping black oil as blacksmith hands hammered away at my soles.
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You said:
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Yet everything you taught me about mules died when I became you.
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She said:
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I remember that day, too, brother, like walking through spider webs.
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You said:
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All of a sudden I was barefoot.
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She said:
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I kicked the blacksmith in the face and galloped away as a moth.
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You said:
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You flew faster than the Big Bang.
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She/You said:
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So fast and wild we turned into a black sparrow.
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She/You said:
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Mother got so angry she smashed her man-fists against the wind like a God dam.
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She/You said:
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Stop them! Stop them! She shouted.
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She/You said:
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But we got away.
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She/You said:
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Until a wild gorilla woman-beast materialized and squashed us against her chest.
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She/You said:
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We wrestled ourselves out of her skin
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She/You said:
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and grew new wings
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She/You said:
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then ripped off our legs
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She/You said:
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sewed them under our eyes
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She/You said:
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so our hearts would never be separate again.
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She/You said:
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Then we heard a cry.
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She/You said:
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The splatter of blood.
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She/You said:
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But it was too late.
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She/You said:
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Time began to grow outside of us again.
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She said:
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Your wings broke off.
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You said:
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Your hooves too.
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She said:
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Black oil began to ooze out of my feet
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You said:
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where light angels burst out smiling, waving, until you fell asleep.
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She said:
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I dreamt of grandfather, fireflies mating, mother kissing my eyelids,
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You said:
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softly,
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She said:
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and the smell of kerosene.
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You said:
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Then everything you knew about yourself died
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She said:
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when I became your mother.
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She said:
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Brother, I died, but only for a moment.
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You said:
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Sister, you're leaking milk on my chest.
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She said:
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I know brother. It's time again.
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You said:
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To separate?
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She said:
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No, to open my boy's eyes.
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You said:
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You realize he will be hungry
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She said:
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and thirsty too.
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You said:
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What will you feed him?
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She said:
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I will feed him chromosomes.
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You said:
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And what will you call Closed Eyes?
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She said:
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I'll call him Universe.
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