the daylight seeps into the blood stream;
as oncoming faces seep into me
the tide rises and trembles
I rise and tremble in a tidal wave of faces
wishing for nothing
in the next realm;
hungry ghost fragments
hollow and invisible
past evidence of an individual
in flooded waters that come with instructions
an infinite proliferation;
each step the same direction, each repetition
each condition -- another filed procedure, filling time
with certainty, numbers with numbers -- counting numbers,
that count nothing; everything that is a thing,
in numbers, times two,
is given a claim ticket
with an exchange value
a discount holiday
caught in discursive laughter.
but really nothing matters;
it's holiday time
time for a pill
time for the crocuses
pleads in the scenery.
then . . . just for a moment
as if sitting in another ocean
in another minute
the pigment falls off, planes fall from the sky
bodies stride in dna;
weighted down in safety zones
near abandoned loading zones;
vacant not by choice or device
there, as in any freakish storm
there, as always;
is a celebration of
whose life is it anyways?
whose gnostics punctuation, got lost?
whose privilege, is never in debate?
we get off the maelstrom
get whose delusion is best, whose
comes in telegraphic chunks;
has adjustable filters;
whose breathing holes are
ranked in what order;
one-through-6 billion plus.
most are bruised, some happy;
happy delusions in premajority thoughts
which is a thought before it happens
which is elections jitters
terminal bruises on demand.
hours or so pass;
it's winter time, it's not enough. it's cold, too hot,
too many remnant hard things, left on a shelf,
left as discounts, as the new old, but more unique
as if naked lunch on the grass
was written by someone
with an entirely different set of circumstances
kari edwards is author of iduna, a day in the life of p., a diary of lies - Belladonna #27, and post/(pink). Sie is also the poetry editor of the International Foundation for Gender Education Transgender Tapestry, an international publication on transgender issues. Hir work has been exhibited throughout the United States, including Denver Art Museum, New Orleans Contemporary Art Museum, University of California San Diego, and University of Massachusetts Amherst. edwards' work can also be found in The Best American Poetry 2004, Experimental Theology, Public Text 0.2, Blood and Tears: Poems for Matthew Shepard, Aufgabe, Mirage/Period(ical), Van Gogh's Ear, Call, Boog City, 88: A Journal of Contemporary American Poetry, Narrativity, Fulcrum: an annual of poetry and aesthetics, Pom2, Shearsman, and The International Journal of Sexuality and Gender Studies.
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